I went to turkey and came back -fill in the blanks-

Yeah i think i know what you're gonna fill in up there. Hmmm? God, where do i start? TURKEY WAS AWESOME. I don't think awesome even does it justice, really. From the 12 hour long flight, yes it was my longest flight since, to the high security. Yeah it turkey dude, like my sister and i wanted to see how cold it was when the other were changing money at the airport and when we try to enter again this typical big dude stops us- so we had to go through the whole security check. Yeah isn't wonderful being felt up by a girl? haha oh well. So our tour group was quite big- 19 if you count the guide, and we went to numerous mosques and castles and museums. Which were totally cool if you appreciate art and great architecture. We then went here and there, yes i know i'm not being specific and thats because i really can't place the names of the towns but we had a 2 domestic flights within turkey and a 10 hour bus ride which shared with this very interesting guy, yeah he told me so many different stories that made me laugh till no end and some even were traumatising, yeah. But i stole his ipod half the time and fell in love with jazz once again oh and maroon 5:)

We went to ancient ruins and mary magdelene's house where there were cute guards haha one gave me his email:) we also went to underground cities and thermal springs and even a thermal pool where there were old japanese couples getting it on- wait maybe they were german, -_- everybody looks the same in the dark covered with steam. Yes basically that, wait i touched snow! but it didn't actually snow snow, like it only snowed in the early morning and it wasn't even to cover everything so i couldn't make angels and collect snow in a bottle for the idiot singaporeans. haha! The flight back was awesome- i mean after a large $15 coffee and getting victoria's secreat at duty free how can it not be?- well it was made better by a special someone giving me a letter, and even better by watching hairspray and even better watching the sun rise when flying over somewhere in the middle east probably kazakhstan or something -_-, but having my sister sing 'in the jungle' in a french accent is classic and i was just annoying the china people around us by laughing. OOPS. sorrow.

Yeah, so its been a week since i got back, damn. I spent it catching up with the girls over numerous starbucks visits and going shopping! :) and also spending it with him. It was fun, i'll tell you but guess i'm not ready. period. I don't care if i go cold or what we've been through. No.

so pictures? =D

drowning?

YO! i blogged finally, didn't really care. Oops people might kill me for this, but yes i do have a life. haha kay so GRAD NIGHT, hmmmm it was ALRIGHT, the after party so rocked and by that i mean pac pacific and booze not fran sevarius winning prom queen. Then, its basically going out and spending time with the girls. Monday was class chalet followed on to tuesday and then the drama farewell/ chalet which was kinda cool. Buu and i arrived sooo early and they didn't let us in! then we got fooled and then attacked by water balloons, with buu taking revenge by repeatedly throwing her shoes at them! hahah, fun. but yeah it was cool, esp the tealight ceremony, and then the truth or truth. :) then abs, son and i stayed over, and i freakin died man. Don't know why i die all the time, really but was awoken by some asshole ringing the doorbell at 2.07. son of a weirdo! Wednesday was uhh. i think i died or something,nah i went to the gym! and then one hour of badminton. thursday was job hunting with son of a gun. haha i want STARBUCKS =( and today was lovely. just lovely. hahaha beached with abs and son. God, i'm spending too much time with them man. But who cares i love them:)
Yeah i know they're not in order but deal with it:)












You tell me that you need me.
Then you go and cut me down,
You don't fool me boy
and I swear I'm not going to fall for you.

I guess trying hard isn't good enough.

So i'm spending my days, bumming at home and just thinking, well actually getting bored and then totally camwhoring, yes me camwhoring. Right. Moving on, I'm just gonna say it, I'm fucking scared of well, everything. Looking at what i did today meaning, going for the acjc dep audition and getting back my hindi results, i relised as much as we're in our party mode, we can't really run away from the Os. Its there! and darling its not going nowhere. Fuck prelims man, really. The feeling is crap. And hindi, god where do i start, how bout its just not fair? We worked shit hard and it turns out crap, i mean i'm fine with me c6 but come on, i always get a 6 and after tons of tution and studying i STILL get a freakin 6, fuck the hard paper man. Theres such a thing as deserving, and nobody deserved what they got for hindi, really. I realised that its probably ACJC or nothing as in i'm not gonna rot in sa or tp or cj or suffer in mj even though it would be shit fun with buu. So what i'm saying is its ac or poly, yup and i'm decided really. :)

JOY I HATE YOU. :D
I WANT TEN POINTS =(

someone called me beautiful yesterday,
and i blushed.
i'm such a girl.

Freedom?

Heyho! The O's are over and yes thats what everybodys talking about, but after months of studying, you're finally free and i think we have the right to rub it in, especially to the dudes taking their As. :)
Its been a good past week, mostly going out with the girls and i really don't know what i'll do without them. boys? pfft who needs them? After diwali, which was cool, visiting and then money and then disco. A good one thing year :) plus i had fantastic clothes! I've done tons of shopping and have yet to do more which i kinda doubt hence the empty wallet. DADDY!!!

I realised i've been much louder and more spontaenous(sp) lately, which is cool. Also trying to make up my mind faster and decide on the spot. Doing things for the moment like kissing :) well after much giggling involved. Truth or Dare, you'd expect no less eh? I wanna dye my hair but what colour? suggestions? Or leave just the cool way it is?

Grad nights coming, and the hype kinda died down or maybe i never really got into it cos well i've got everything meaning my dress and all, so i never really needed to go shopping and do whatever else crap. don't think i'll do my hair in a saloon and my nails can go to hell, seriously. Maybe i'll straighten it myself but that probably won't work out. We'll see.

I don't wanna leave everything and everyone but the holidays could be a fun roller coster ride with all the parties and the turkey trip. Damn, can't wait.
and i'm gonna call you, i promise.


Aakansha's birthday lunch :)

look! SAD!

note: the hair!!! :D

oops.

i miss the old times.

this was AFTER.

my last day of actual studying.

cabbing to pick up grandma!

BIBI :D

i'm sorry i tried but the light just killed it.

Dumbfuck.

I've never felt more alone in my life.
Never stupider.
Never fatter.
And never unhappier.

What? Explain myself. TODAY WAS BAD. no lets face it the whole freakin past 2 weeks have been bad, not counting the hols. Exams FUCK YOU! The dentist can go do that as well. UGH. I had a horrible unproductive night study today. ALONE WITH AMATHS. :( :( :( yeah there were like 4 people and buu didn't come even though she was the one who was like 'lets go yeah study!'.
I wish my laughs could be real, or maybe they are real, to the extent where they've kicked the shittiness of life under the carpet, forgotten? Nope.

I've never felt more confused in my life.
Never more afraid.
Never more vulgar.
Never more in love.

Exams are over. hurrah. lets party.

I need to find my way back into love.

I realised we're all dying slowly, withering away in our own mudholes, bit by bit disintegrating into the earth and whats left? A quivering brain and shit. Yupp. Studied with Pasu today which was sorta productive yet not. I still have so much to do and well, who doesn't.

Three people asked me if i was going to JC or Poly today, at the first, i shrugged, the second who somehow assumed i was going to JC, i replied 'how do you know?' and the third, who at first i ignored and then answered after like an hour which in the end just got me more confused. I don't know dammit. Really, i mean after all those hours spent contemplating over this idiotic beyond idiot decision that we'll have to make sooner or later, i'm left with nothing but interests, background and dreams. EH. :( I guess it all down to believing in yourself now and doing your best which means me getting off the com now.

If the perfect guy was right in front of you and he was available, as in a possibility, what would you do?

happy studying ya'll.

and i'm not gonna go all crushing on him again, just because we've become so much closer. I like it now, this way, where we trust each other and talk late into the night. And switch off only because he has chemistry and i have maths. :)

Wait a minute, boy.

Alright, I conclude I hate mornings, totally. And this week started off shit bad. I realised at 6.50am that i didn't have an ironed blouse so i had to iron it. :( while daddy dropped my brother and sister off to school, i hate to worry wait at the bus stop, hoping that i won't be late, and then my saviour! ABBEY. i love you really. haha she came in the shining mercedes and picked me up, :D much thanks to her mum. The day was alright, we had a 'stress' management thing, which was cool cos we were drawing and shit and laughing, suiee and i went horribly mad. haha and she the princess and somehow i'm the queen. and then there was this relaxation/ visualisation/ manifestation thing. which all i remember in breathe in breathe out, and then suiee tickling my leg and again breathe in and breathe out. So basically i fell asleep through the whole thing. And its only monday dammit! yup, and then i went all silent thinking about my dear mother. yeah, i realised i don't want to talk to her, cos it'll just make it worse, like oh i miss you and this and that. I'm tired really. Yeah duh i miss her, thats practically an understatement but i guess i'm used to it.
Today was not at all any better, i went to school with specs and everybody's like 'oh din, you're wearing specs.' err YEAH i guess as much since its on my face! hmm yup tired eyes aren't good. and then furthermore i woke up late great thanks to my sister, and had to rush to school, which proudly i will say i wasn't late. But i went hungry, real uncomfortable, with ugly specs, my hair died and must i say more? and i did ACES and i cheered up. :)
i have a new walking buddy! jialin! :D

OH before i forget, the wedding was totally awesome, pretty dress, flawless skin, good food, good music, awesome company. :) yup pictures will soon follow as soon as i get them. AH!

I realised alot of boys from SAS have nothing better to do, at all.
my masochistic ways.

Quickie.

Alright so i'm back once again from outer space. Lots of talk about results today, what with the Olevel MT results and DPA results as well. Went through the afternoon, the best way it can be spent, girlfriends, starbucks and studying. :) Although, I realised the competition has stepped way up, and even to be 'wanted' is a need. I screwed up DPA, period. Consequence, i got nothing. Yup and i guess i'm pretty fine with it. There's always more, like striving for prelims and you know move on with better things. MJC is so fucktarded. Glad i had nothing to do with that at all. So much for the people who screamed at me for not going for the DSA application. Hmm. So I'm working. Tution was shit just now, god, i almost died, kay it was kinematics, emaths, simple? not at all! I had to redo every freakin question cos i got it wrong and then all the other people got off copying answers. Well they'll learn for sure.

Moving on, National Day weekend, pretty productive i would say although alot more could have been accomplished. Sports carnival was well for a better word, cool. We sucked at the big ball :( but sac cup was cooool, i played keeper! and i saved a penalty and got killed by the second one! haha pictures! and then was off with the girlsfriends from 4.8 to catch the simpsons which was the best! i heart spider pig!! haha and i pierced my nose! like finally! i know. and then had a heart attack in the case of losing my wallet, but the good people at GV had found it. :D
Had a blast going for fireworks with the boys. :) Shit funny la, i can't help it. And then these idiots wanted to go to OCH, which i abandoned after spending a 45min bus ride comtemplating, should i go, should i get off. So i got off like somewhere in ulu loyang and took a cab back which was okay seeing that it came up to 7 bucks.

Friday, after tution hung out at the club, with the sindhis. Damn. haha aurora is kinda hot, i can't help it! but did good studying. :) and
Saturday was pretty much the same thing, cept we finished hindi school early and sweated to macs, then cabbed to the club once again. Sorry larrrh i love that place. And again attack of the sindhis, haha i fell asleep for like half and hour and then got down to business, by that i mean bio, which i did for bout an hour plus and then went to PP to get a free facial! :D haha their the best, picked up sneakers from giodarno which were like 10 bucks each, so i got black and white (school shoes finally!) and then went back to the club for dinner with the family, well the cuzzins and aunts are all coming down. Wedding in 5 days!!!

Don't give my number to guys who ask for it, or atleast ask me or even make sure he's hot before you do that! :) thanks. :D
sa boys are poo rubbish.and superman? damn he's so not worth it!

:( blogger isn't letting me post pictures so i'll save that for another time!

These days, are lookingforwardtofridaydays.

If you know what i mean that if, of course you do! Hmm so i finally updated, tell a friend! For those who are reading this, you probably know all about the guys and i mean boys. And whatever so they're all really idiotic cept for one. :) So how bout i just start with this week eh?
Monday monday, HMMMMM. nothing much.
Tuesday, was our physics mocks and damn! Not so confident really. And then had fantastic ice-cream with waffleo with the one and only, abbey.
Wednesday lets see school was rubbish but hell funny, we went down for PE in our blouses, how cool is that? well besides the fact that everybody was staring. 4.8 the attention grabbers. haha and i lost another kg! :) a hundred more too go, hahaa i wish i could be negative. And then flew to the airport with abbey again! spending to much time with her and her cooties are getting to me! ARGH. and some idiot called me 12.45am. after not talking to me since what, forever?
Thursday which is today? lalala :D i rushed from school after our bio/physics practicals which turned out quite interesting wait no! Chem practical was like a cheap thrill for all of us, endo and exothermic reactions, whaddaya expect. its like 'OOOOO like air con! OMG! so coooooollll!' *smile smile touch touch* yup so i rushed home and then to tution which turned out cancelled and i only knew after i had got there. WTH. i know. yeah she was like, oh i was waiting for you since 4 (and by that time it was like 5.30) and now i have plans, i'm going for a walk with my friends. -_-" i know. haha but turned out cool afterall, meeting rahul for awhile, just to walk me the bus stop and exchange cds. haha i enjoy this friendship :)
well so here i am. Possibly regretting this entry, possibly not. But who knows eh. STUDY STUDY STUDY. me myself and my tys. :) haha pictures!

Batam trip, and sibling lovee.

Go green! haha yes those are my lovely green pumps WITH my school skirt :) and yes i wore that to school.

wafah and i! i wasn't happy that day. hahaa

KITTY!

randomn, i love these peeps.

Hindi school! haha we're all just fooling around.

And finally! MY FREAKUM DRESS. haha yeah for daddy's wedding and possibly grad night? :D

Ah pffft.

This blog died. Oh my, and she blogs again.
School's been shit, tutions been shit, basically everythings shit. Distractions are fucking annoying and that includes boys. EH. too much has happened and i'll update when i want to.
MEH.

Limitations.

Sunday was awesomeness. Thank you pasu, :) We went for this charity concert called Skinned and it coolio beyond words. Fine i'm probably being bias cos of the bhangra. Haha wahlao. But it was good fun and it was for a good cause. We were ushering, and i got henna done while son got a bird air brushed tatooed on her neck as you can see with the pictures below. So totally cool. Yeah. :)

Monday,monday,monday. Had SS in the morning, which was fun as usual, i became prime minister for 5 mins and solved Singapore's water, land and talent shortage and prevented terrorism at the same time! haha i rock as PM. rubbish politics. Woke up bi and we went to see the depp and bloom, yes he deserves a moment unlike some people. haha, I loved the starting even though it was a bit morbid, with the pirates singing to their death, heh and el Capitaine Jack Sparrow's entrance, with the nose and then suddenly hundreds of depps appear, so if you worship the Depp, you HAVE catch Pirates 3. HAVETO. However he didn't have the best bod in the world but hey! he's like 40-something. hah succumbed to the DEPP. abi, ello poppit?
I finally got my G2000 shirt which is sooooo pretty, i love the colour! :) yeah its the first picture of the previous post. We spent a nice time talking at Starbucks. And after that, i felt so much like shit, i craved oily food, can you believe that. So i had old chang kee. :) Screw the diet. Then was off to Grandma's which was the usual, sit down watch hindi soapoperas which are soooo baddd. haha its so stupid.






what happened to parents wanted the best for their child,
what will i ever do with these new-age parents.