I guess trying hard isn't good enough.

So i'm spending my days, bumming at home and just thinking, well actually getting bored and then totally camwhoring, yes me camwhoring. Right. Moving on, I'm just gonna say it, I'm fucking scared of well, everything. Looking at what i did today meaning, going for the acjc dep audition and getting back my hindi results, i relised as much as we're in our party mode, we can't really run away from the Os. Its there! and darling its not going nowhere. Fuck prelims man, really. The feeling is crap. And hindi, god where do i start, how bout its just not fair? We worked shit hard and it turns out crap, i mean i'm fine with me c6 but come on, i always get a 6 and after tons of tution and studying i STILL get a freakin 6, fuck the hard paper man. Theres such a thing as deserving, and nobody deserved what they got for hindi, really. I realised that its probably ACJC or nothing as in i'm not gonna rot in sa or tp or cj or suffer in mj even though it would be shit fun with buu. So what i'm saying is its ac or poly, yup and i'm decided really. :)

JOY I HATE YOU. :D
I WANT TEN POINTS =(

someone called me beautiful yesterday,
and i blushed.
i'm such a girl.