:)

Its time to paint those nails,
time to enjoy the last week of freedom.
Spend time with those you love,
even if i love you more everyday.
Cut half your brain in half,
and i think you won't be missing no one.
i wish i could do that,
missing too many people,
and too many good ol times.

Sometimes i feel i could love you for the rest of my life. <3

Warmth

The way it is,
I don't know where we're going.
Take it a step at a time, you say.
But can it always be one step after another?
There are gonna be times when we need to change.
And leave this comfort behind.
Adjust our laughs and rearrange those hands.
And just try not to let it show on our faces.

It hurts when i think about it.
To look at you at not be able to tell you the whole truth.
Cos we talk and action much too much.
But i know throughout everything, you'll still be there;
a 100 percent,
i don't want to let you down.

On the edge, of breaking. Ready to explode at any moment. Annoyance, impatience and too much running around. I hate having to cancel plans and say i can't make it, i'm sorry=( I hate having to choose between important things and not knowing what to do cos theres so much expected of you. And it just sucks that i have to cancel on people i miss the most, while they go out and enjoy their holidays, we'll be living in our new home and all i can hope is that we won't explode too soon cos theres just too many things to do. That one second you take a step back, you'll see how those dark circles are creeping up like a neverending abyss and how the snapping could actually do damage, one day baby, i promise.

Comfort

And at times like these, its unimaginable. To be that comfortable with everything. Go with the flow of the day and do what we like. Eat good food with the best company. I'll rush now, because time presses on like that talk we haven't had in ages. I miss the girls so much, cos as much as we have changed, nothing really has changed.

Faces

I looked at her, i saw unhappiness through. I looked to my left, i saw a trusted face with one too many stress lines. On my right, sat one who could see me through no questions asked, yet the eyes weren't brightly lit as they used to be. Yet, around us, spurts of laughter, of twinkly smiles. Whats happending to us, asks the mirror. Flicker of disappointment never fails the watching eye. We know all to well. Deal with these expectations first and get past it. You should know these things, honey. Its no surprise.

The days will get by, the strands from black to white. Sometimes i wonder whats the point of all this. The amount of effort put in surely can't equal to what comes out of it. Its just that frown is settling into your face and all i want to do, is wipe it off with a nice big wet tissue.

Holidays, by our definition.

state of mind;

Too impatient for my own good,
i expect you to be there.
When all i ever do is get surprised.
There are more important things in life, they say.
Show me, i wanna see.

Tomorrow's a new day,
but what if its already a new day?
And you're still feeling the same way,
Sleep didn't make you forget, or dream about something else,
it just postpones time.

Need, is never ending.
Like a problem sum, solve it.
And you'll get the answer.
To what your soul craves and
the basics of what you think is right.

Not of non-importance,
not of no care.
Just the world doesn't revolve around you.
and its probably time,
we'd realise it.

Friendship, you whooshed right past me.

cough

How am i to say these things that sit unexplained in my head.
You need to take a walk in my shoes for a day and see the world in a different light.
Instead of your closed up, controlled smiles,
tell me through your teeth what your tongue wants to speak.

These days are lost, meaningless.
You can't erase mistakes, the dust will still be left there.

final take 2

Can't write emo poems,
they bring you nothing but thoughts;
of change,
unavoidable change.
What can we do my friend?
The thing we brought upon ourself.
Its empty.
All Clear Signal

Ears are tired.
I've heard this before.
Can't comprehend at 4 am in the moring.
And all i wanna do,
is sleep,
wake up to a whole new day,
new house,
almost 19,
almost there,
changed.

God, i'm gonna miss everything, this, that, you.

dry

She sat there looking at us;
hoping that the good student in us
would somehow wake up.
From the sleepy eyes she put to sleep,
with her slang-ed accent, mouth that stretched too wide.
Eager to impart her knowledge which our hands scribble down.
page after page, filled with useless diagrams and techniques,
about the competition of molecular weights, polarity and non.

Stuffed in our bleached coats,
roasting for her final test
but cher' we're not touching no acid
no burner's gonna burn our hair
and i'm only wearing my specs
cos well i'm scared your spit might just reach me,
and maybe well, it masks the only window.

But I'm looking at you, miss
and i can see right through you.
and all you really want
is for us to do our best.
Tempers may flare and that pressure is cooking
but we're trying, cher', really really.
its just the table top looks a lot more comfortable right now.

Black feet,
by the dust of years ago.
Hidden by the rocks of laziness,
we struck treasure and then we forgot,
forget the forgotten,
pictures of the past;
numerous burnt cds from the days of illegal rampage.
Tears at the corners of my eyes.

we tiptoe through the dust,
not wanting to wake the sleeping sealed boxes.
'They must be tired from carrying all that together'
i close my eyes,

and try to recall the ones they call memories.
these things tell a story and yet we discard like water.
what am i thinking.

19,
great.

and before we know it it'll be next week, i'll be older and in a new house.

stick

I mean it, i promise.
Always tell you, i don't need you
but i forgot to say out loud, how beautiful you really are.

float

We're on different levels,
i'm don't know where i am.
Rushing through everything,
never time to sit down and look,
to people-watch,
to look at you,
blinking your pretty eyes at me.

but i'm breathing,
you know you hear.
yet we're somehow floating;
through this life as if normal.

I'm not thinking,
what you're thinking,
cos its not something you think about.
when your mind is here on earth.