Noo'yerr!

Happy New Years' babes! I'll see you next year! And baby, everything is gonna be the same, nothing'll ever change.

You got my number, if you like what you like.

This is me on the last day of the year.
I need to remember to add an extra count to the countdown cos of the leap year.
oh my.
what a year.
what a fantastic past 2 weeks.
I'm looking through the pictures and i can't choose. There are too many, too many people fill my life and i don't know how i love them all.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMINAH, ABI and CHEWBZ!
- you know how much you mean to me. how much you make my mornings and nights better and every other part of the day, how my life would be different. How school would never be more fun, how boys wouldn't be crappers, how we groove to the same music, how i know exactly what you're thinking, how we'll enjoy our coffee together, how we'll laugh at each other and talk about nothing at all. How i'll always be there for you no matter what. How i love you so much and i don't even have to say it cos you know it already. Favourite pictures=)




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So maybe i'm looking forward to the new year, maybe cos i don't think anythings gonna change. Maybe cos i'm know i'm gonna spend it with people i love. A new year calls for resolutions, and besides studying more and losing weight, i will love you more. Picture post coming before the clock strikes.

deviations.

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Holidays are being what they were meant to be. Catching up with friends, holidays to foreign lands(actually only malay land), spending money like crazy(learnt from abi=)), family time, alone time, time spent actually missing school, eating heckalot, and missing people that just don't have the time. But we've still got 6 days left, do not fret! Xmas is here!=) and so are projects?X[

KL roadtrip=awesome despite the bickering about whether to turn left or go straight on the highway, family time yeah! Saw too many roadside cows. haha pictures will tell. But i spent way too much of their money although maybe it just seems alot cos they're always stinging. Got plenty of stuff. Too many too name here. But a slight wardrobe change might be noted. From malacca to port dickson to kl. driving. madness. haha! and malaysians really cannot give directions, and reading a map gives the amazing race feeling. And suprisingly camwhoring with the kids.
And i spent alot of time thinking, thinking about what if in a years time or so, i would be driving up with friends. Would it be the same? Fighting over directions, over maps, over iwannasleeptheres and getoutofthetolietnows, whether to go to the pool or play pool, where to go blow our money. The fact that i'll be the only one worrying, the company, the drinks, the few of freedom with people that i love. The pros and cons of imagination.

So let the week come, around 6 xmas parties in total, 2 nights spent at clarke quay, 5 projects to get by, ways to finally quit, and endless freedom with loved ones.

Eyecandies are meant to be looked at, and nothing else=)

Malacca!=)
They were laughing about how swimming gives you a centre parting.(my favourite picture of the whole trip even though i'm not in it=))
Somebody yelled DRIFFFTT so thats what we did.
Just look at my gangster bro, haha i think this was anger.
Random atap house!

You're that close, so try harder.

By the time you read this i'll probably be gone, somewhere in jalan ulu malaysia. My tummy hurts and its not a good sign. Signs, i wish i knew sometimes seriously. The way you look at me scares the hell outta me but still makes me smile at the butterflies in my dear tummy and my hands still grow cold. dammit we're back to square one.

Its only 4 days, i'll be back! till then, i hope i love you. kaythanksbye.

addiction.

This is what i get for not blogging when so many things happen around me. Friday night was complicated? haha, in conclusion i still remain sober why others around me are gone to a place far far away. But clarke quay on a friday night is madness, seriously. The number of police and ambulances and omg the piss drunk people. If you read the article on zouk out and why youngsters get so sloshed. They should do one for clark quay on a friday.
Anyways, i'm going mad wait i'm already mad. Haha! i'm working my ass off just to save and i've only gotten proper sleep this afternoon after 1 week of papers. Which were pretty good, except for bmic which was still okay but okay=bullshit so we'll see. But i miss school!X[
Xmas is coming and being a grinch, i have no presents. Eh i'll see something in msia hopefully. And the weeks seem to be filling up but shoo projects shoo!
btw, twilight is awesomezzz only cos i'm robert pattinson, so go watch and make sure to bring tissue for the err drool=)
-so the picture doesn't want to load, heck-

and the worst part is the fact that you smoke doesn't bother me no more.

miss independent.

I realise once again as i take a step back. That studs never rule in the world of buds and basic fact, they're just not worth it cos boys are crappers! So as i run away from maths, i enjoy the fact that the papers weren't that bad cos i'm not that dead. 3 down, 2 to go! KAY BYE=)

When you gotta run, you run.

According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you. And then tag 5 people.(Only cause i'm procrastinating and cause i<3shazzzz)

1. i get irritated alot but don't show it most of the time.
2. i have a thing for pretty boys with curly hair.
3. i think everyone should headbang once in awhile.
4. i sometimes wish i could speak malay.
5. i relate boys with different songs.
6. i want a gay best friend.
7. i have 2 first ear holes on my right ear.
8. if you asked me to choose between coffee or tea, i would take a really long time.
9. i'm supposed to be a morning person-__-
10. i used to play neopets in primary school(haha!)
11. i adore baking.
12. i could people watch all day.
13. i get really nervous speaking infront of crowds
14. but acting infront of an audience is no problem.
15. i have really weird friends who are small.
16. favourite drink is 7-up raspberry and drink drink is cranberry vodka with lime=)
17. i'm scared/excited/anxious/don't care/loving that i'm turning 18 in exactly 8 weeks=)
And a lil bit more. I blush when i see you=)

Tagsss yo.
Abi
Minah
Pau
Wafah
Sonia

Surprise me, surprised you.

I sit with peppermint white chocolate mousse topped with dark chocolate, a weird match made in heaven. Bless nigella for inventing such a thing=)
Socio can seriously go and die. But i'm still gonna have to mug for it, whether tonight or tmr and tuesday=( cos hss idiots have 2 tests in one week.
anyhooo, aishah's birthday surprise was awesommmeeeezzzz=) SHE CRIED! but we went through the whole of 'geylang' just to find her stuffs, surprised her at the durians and it was a success, yeaahh!

It reminded me of this whole year(well actually started from abnia, to mine, to buu's, to povan's, arun's, casti's, zue's to farah's and then to aishah's. Help me if i forgot a surprised birthday, but damn there were tons. Now minah's, chew's and abi's eh?=D)

So plans for the next week? NARTTHHHING AT ALL except study. WHOOOO.
except i really really wanna go to bugis and shop and i don't know if that can wait?
Oh yeah, port dickson, malacca and KL-> 18-21dec. Pretty much confirmed. which meeeaaannsss piercing on 22nd,ya?

Damn who ate all my white chocolate?=(

Steal my blood.

The only exciting thing that happened so far this week, i gave blood. Whooooo, and to all the idiots who tried to scare me, it didn't work and to all the wimps, it didn't hurt one bit. I think the worst part was that the bandage was too tight-____- haha but it was turquoise! freakin cool plus with friends around me to make me laugh and to make the smell of blood go away=) awesome yo. next year we all go kay?

Mumbai bomb blasts are fucking scary. Okay so you normally woundn't care about this shit cos it not really happening to you but my sister's in freakin motherland! Apparently my aunt's place is one street away from the bombs. OMGFREAKINSHITDIE. yeah but i spoke to her and everyones alright, the only problem is she's not in mumbai but in a city 3 hours away, under my spanish cousin's name, doesn't have her passport with her and there are riots and suspected blasts happening at the train station where she's gotta take her train back to mumbai. So parents say stay where you are and delay her monday flight back to sg. FREAKINTERRORISTS(i wish i could understand you guys's problems, but you shouldn't touch my sister!)

And lastly, (on a happier note) HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISHAH!=D faking sick on your birthday is wonderful cos you get to enjoy the holiday like you should while everyone in school is talking about you. love you babe!

On another note(cos i failed english and didn't know lastly is last) Boys are crappers, seriously=)

Failure fuck.

I tried studying and ended up sleeping on my notes. Great job=(
Bibi, its time for the study week at starbucksss.
BYE PAU=(

and and HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAH DEAR!=D

Desi girl.

I remain cold these days, i don't know why. So much has happened and even more is going to happen. Who's birthday?=) Maybe i'm baking too much cos the carrot cake was fuck. Shouldn't try altering receipes and i have to remember not to squeeze in orange juice just cos i feel like it=(

The tests are over but somehow Socio tests are coming over the hill, its gonna be a monster. I loved sparks deepavali, freakin sari with fatties showing. Too much eyeshadow and having people calling me chandramugie(sp?) which is like a tamil ghost/devil kinda thing. HAHA! I loved pentas sutera(whhoooo!) with all my malay girls performing(baik sial!) haha no i do not speak malay.
I'm surprisingly loving the whole room to myself or maybe thats just me getting used to the absence of laksaaa, while she has fun in indiaaa for the next week!
I'm not going for drunkfest, yeah!

PAU DON'T GOOOOOOO!=(=(=(

We're not gonna break even.

Hearts beating fast, the night before your big night.
Butterflies ready to take flight in your tummy,
voice humming to begin,
feet prepare to be squashed i'm sorry,
eyes ready to light up,
lips ready to turn up.
Control not to shout my head off,
scream cos i'll see you in the audience.
To keep time and stay alive, not to trip or die.
To please and not to flash,
to wear the clothes of the old and married but to stay young and single but attached=)

haha good luck tmr guys! and i hope my voice doesn't screech like a teenage boy's=D

Days like that, weeks like this.

Nothing will ever replace alone time watching the history boys while the sky slowly turns from yellow to various shades of pinky purpley. Or time spent with the girls every single day during our 4-freakin-hours break or dreaming about the people i dream about. The rain still falls and somehow the number of sniffs in lecture increase. And we just walk around looking for old faces and wishing we were boys cos damn we'd be better men.

and i might just be in love with boys whose names are 5 letters, weird isn't it.

Saturday special.

How'd i give anything for saturdays like this one.
Fall asleep messaging but
waking up early and laying in bed for as long as i want to.
Waking up to music which is not blasting in my ears for me to get up.
Tea for breakfast at 12.30.
Today's plans, baking my dear fudgeyfudgefudge brownies(finally!)
After a long long week, after going back to the usual.
I'm starting to like school once again, only beacause of the special people who make my day special-er=)

Halloweenie's not the same without you.

Pictures speak for themselves, except that rae's friend dressed up as a tree and i don't have a picture! But he was so cute when he tried to sit down but couldn't. HAHA!
-I'm sorry buu, that i'm posting a few pictures up here but i shall not ruin your name on facebook no more!

More visiting! and its probably the last, but diwali was still the best this year=) but i pretty much died after carrying newspapers for cip, but thanks for making me laugh so hard till i cried(as usual), and i was not trying to act macho kaayyy.

So after the previous post, half of all the shit is cleared up(after a whole night of talking it out) and i have a plan for the rest!

Purposely isolated.

I find myself running out of time. School is close to madness nowadays and i am hating staying back till 6 just for a lesson. I find myself having more responsibility than i usually do and with more people counting on me than normal. I find myself somehow able to cope, but end up ignoring a few peoples unavoidably. I find myself once again running away from my problems and realise that i'll never really pour my heart out to anyone because nobody would totally get it. I find myself needing some space from a certain people and resulting to going back to lost friendships.

On another note, the whole diwali weekend was fantastic from saturday's getting our hair done to helping krysten with physics to visiting to an awesome gig=) to getting more than i expected. Sunday's work and then to plaza sing to seragoon road to going for the diwali open house to bhangra night!!
Monday's cancelled plans to visiting to more visiting and reframing from alcohol just cos i had school the next day to watching my sister get drunk and to sitting at a table of 10 with 9 smokers.
Tuesday's rushing to school for lab, to coming home to rushing for lunch at boat quay to my dad's office for prayers to a near accident with a police car to grandma's house to get fat and get money and back to home for more prayers and more money=)
Fantastic eh, and the weekend's bringing even more.