I need to find my way back into love.

I realised we're all dying slowly, withering away in our own mudholes, bit by bit disintegrating into the earth and whats left? A quivering brain and shit. Yupp. Studied with Pasu today which was sorta productive yet not. I still have so much to do and well, who doesn't.

Three people asked me if i was going to JC or Poly today, at the first, i shrugged, the second who somehow assumed i was going to JC, i replied 'how do you know?' and the third, who at first i ignored and then answered after like an hour which in the end just got me more confused. I don't know dammit. Really, i mean after all those hours spent contemplating over this idiotic beyond idiot decision that we'll have to make sooner or later, i'm left with nothing but interests, background and dreams. EH. :( I guess it all down to believing in yourself now and doing your best which means me getting off the com now.

If the perfect guy was right in front of you and he was available, as in a possibility, what would you do?

happy studying ya'll.

and i'm not gonna go all crushing on him again, just because we've become so much closer. I like it now, this way, where we trust each other and talk late into the night. And switch off only because he has chemistry and i have maths. :)

Wait a minute, boy.

Alright, I conclude I hate mornings, totally. And this week started off shit bad. I realised at 6.50am that i didn't have an ironed blouse so i had to iron it. :( while daddy dropped my brother and sister off to school, i hate to worry wait at the bus stop, hoping that i won't be late, and then my saviour! ABBEY. i love you really. haha she came in the shining mercedes and picked me up, :D much thanks to her mum. The day was alright, we had a 'stress' management thing, which was cool cos we were drawing and shit and laughing, suiee and i went horribly mad. haha and she the princess and somehow i'm the queen. and then there was this relaxation/ visualisation/ manifestation thing. which all i remember in breathe in breathe out, and then suiee tickling my leg and again breathe in and breathe out. So basically i fell asleep through the whole thing. And its only monday dammit! yup, and then i went all silent thinking about my dear mother. yeah, i realised i don't want to talk to her, cos it'll just make it worse, like oh i miss you and this and that. I'm tired really. Yeah duh i miss her, thats practically an understatement but i guess i'm used to it.
Today was not at all any better, i went to school with specs and everybody's like 'oh din, you're wearing specs.' err YEAH i guess as much since its on my face! hmm yup tired eyes aren't good. and then furthermore i woke up late great thanks to my sister, and had to rush to school, which proudly i will say i wasn't late. But i went hungry, real uncomfortable, with ugly specs, my hair died and must i say more? and i did ACES and i cheered up. :)
i have a new walking buddy! jialin! :D

OH before i forget, the wedding was totally awesome, pretty dress, flawless skin, good food, good music, awesome company. :) yup pictures will soon follow as soon as i get them. AH!

I realised alot of boys from SAS have nothing better to do, at all.
my masochistic ways.

Quickie.

Alright so i'm back once again from outer space. Lots of talk about results today, what with the Olevel MT results and DPA results as well. Went through the afternoon, the best way it can be spent, girlfriends, starbucks and studying. :) Although, I realised the competition has stepped way up, and even to be 'wanted' is a need. I screwed up DPA, period. Consequence, i got nothing. Yup and i guess i'm pretty fine with it. There's always more, like striving for prelims and you know move on with better things. MJC is so fucktarded. Glad i had nothing to do with that at all. So much for the people who screamed at me for not going for the DSA application. Hmm. So I'm working. Tution was shit just now, god, i almost died, kay it was kinematics, emaths, simple? not at all! I had to redo every freakin question cos i got it wrong and then all the other people got off copying answers. Well they'll learn for sure.

Moving on, National Day weekend, pretty productive i would say although alot more could have been accomplished. Sports carnival was well for a better word, cool. We sucked at the big ball :( but sac cup was cooool, i played keeper! and i saved a penalty and got killed by the second one! haha pictures! and then was off with the girlsfriends from 4.8 to catch the simpsons which was the best! i heart spider pig!! haha and i pierced my nose! like finally! i know. and then had a heart attack in the case of losing my wallet, but the good people at GV had found it. :D
Had a blast going for fireworks with the boys. :) Shit funny la, i can't help it. And then these idiots wanted to go to OCH, which i abandoned after spending a 45min bus ride comtemplating, should i go, should i get off. So i got off like somewhere in ulu loyang and took a cab back which was okay seeing that it came up to 7 bucks.

Friday, after tution hung out at the club, with the sindhis. Damn. haha aurora is kinda hot, i can't help it! but did good studying. :) and
Saturday was pretty much the same thing, cept we finished hindi school early and sweated to macs, then cabbed to the club once again. Sorry larrrh i love that place. And again attack of the sindhis, haha i fell asleep for like half and hour and then got down to business, by that i mean bio, which i did for bout an hour plus and then went to PP to get a free facial! :D haha their the best, picked up sneakers from giodarno which were like 10 bucks each, so i got black and white (school shoes finally!) and then went back to the club for dinner with the family, well the cuzzins and aunts are all coming down. Wedding in 5 days!!!

Don't give my number to guys who ask for it, or atleast ask me or even make sure he's hot before you do that! :) thanks. :D
sa boys are poo rubbish.and superman? damn he's so not worth it!

:( blogger isn't letting me post pictures so i'll save that for another time!

These days, are lookingforwardtofridaydays.

If you know what i mean that if, of course you do! Hmm so i finally updated, tell a friend! For those who are reading this, you probably know all about the guys and i mean boys. And whatever so they're all really idiotic cept for one. :) So how bout i just start with this week eh?
Monday monday, HMMMMM. nothing much.
Tuesday, was our physics mocks and damn! Not so confident really. And then had fantastic ice-cream with waffleo with the one and only, abbey.
Wednesday lets see school was rubbish but hell funny, we went down for PE in our blouses, how cool is that? well besides the fact that everybody was staring. 4.8 the attention grabbers. haha and i lost another kg! :) a hundred more too go, hahaa i wish i could be negative. And then flew to the airport with abbey again! spending to much time with her and her cooties are getting to me! ARGH. and some idiot called me 12.45am. after not talking to me since what, forever?
Thursday which is today? lalala :D i rushed from school after our bio/physics practicals which turned out quite interesting wait no! Chem practical was like a cheap thrill for all of us, endo and exothermic reactions, whaddaya expect. its like 'OOOOO like air con! OMG! so coooooollll!' *smile smile touch touch* yup so i rushed home and then to tution which turned out cancelled and i only knew after i had got there. WTH. i know. yeah she was like, oh i was waiting for you since 4 (and by that time it was like 5.30) and now i have plans, i'm going for a walk with my friends. -_-" i know. haha but turned out cool afterall, meeting rahul for awhile, just to walk me the bus stop and exchange cds. haha i enjoy this friendship :)
well so here i am. Possibly regretting this entry, possibly not. But who knows eh. STUDY STUDY STUDY. me myself and my tys. :) haha pictures!

Batam trip, and sibling lovee.

Go green! haha yes those are my lovely green pumps WITH my school skirt :) and yes i wore that to school.

wafah and i! i wasn't happy that day. hahaa

KITTY!

randomn, i love these peeps.

Hindi school! haha we're all just fooling around.

And finally! MY FREAKUM DRESS. haha yeah for daddy's wedding and possibly grad night? :D