benefits

Breathe, we've still got another 24 hours.
To squeeze everything that we could possible get out of these last dying hours.Its turned out better than expectations even though i wasn't supposed to expect expectations. Only thing i need is some coffee and a breather, to get myself away from all this.
-pause-
my hands are cold. i don't believe this. and i'm actually kinda glad cos apparently theres a smile for a different thing. Just might have made my day.

alrights, time to get back to work. yes no maybe.
the heart flutterings are gone.
its complete just the way it is.
my heart was never open, and my spirit never free(watch avatar please.)

surprise

I love you because i can.
I don't know how you know these things about me, that you're not supposed to know but my face tells all and you just know. Coffee, dates, swimming and taking turns to be the boy. haha! I'm so glad you're my age now, so you act like it now babeh. No more merajuk anymore eh, and can't get so affected by the stupid boys also. I'll always be here. can't run anywhere cos i'll see your face everyday anyways=) Rain or shine or smelly itas lunches. Through our terrible faces, and laughter too loud to by lady like, always be my nana.

love love you=)

Comfortability;

Its getting better; the days.
Denial shifts the work to the back of
my mind
is smiling.
cos i spent the past 3 days making out with
some asshole dummy who didn't respond at all.
kinda reminds you of some.
at ease, with time and its thoughts.
i taste briyani
i'm not looking at my projects lining the desktop.
yesterday was bomb cos we're so alike even after a year,
its like nothing changed but change is inevitable afterall.
and for once,
i actually have somethings to look forward to.
just a lil effort eh

Papers are done; 6 papers were no joke and my mind craving for a holiday well craves. I'm expecting the holidays won't be much satisfying, really. Got a whole long list forming infront of me as we speak. Its disgusting really but what can be helped, just need to do projects yup. We'll dedicate on project per day and it'll be over and done with. Catching up on the movies wooshed past is and 2012 was too hyped up. It was believable but no fair wehn the hero always is saved and the fat and foreign people alwasys seem to die first. It was a computer game on big screen, and much to coupling.But its come to normality and no expectations.

focus; breathe

I fought you for so long,
i should have let you in.
Oh how we regret those things we do;
and all i was trying was to save my own skin,
but so were you.

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