Purposely isolated.

I find myself running out of time. School is close to madness nowadays and i am hating staying back till 6 just for a lesson. I find myself having more responsibility than i usually do and with more people counting on me than normal. I find myself somehow able to cope, but end up ignoring a few peoples unavoidably. I find myself once again running away from my problems and realise that i'll never really pour my heart out to anyone because nobody would totally get it. I find myself needing some space from a certain people and resulting to going back to lost friendships.

On another note, the whole diwali weekend was fantastic from saturday's getting our hair done to helping krysten with physics to visiting to an awesome gig=) to getting more than i expected. Sunday's work and then to plaza sing to seragoon road to going for the diwali open house to bhangra night!!
Monday's cancelled plans to visiting to more visiting and reframing from alcohol just cos i had school the next day to watching my sister get drunk and to sitting at a table of 10 with 9 smokers.
Tuesday's rushing to school for lab, to coming home to rushing for lunch at boat quay to my dad's office for prayers to a near accident with a police car to grandma's house to get fat and get money and back to home for more prayers and more money=)
Fantastic eh, and the weekend's bringing even more.

Mera dil, tumhara kail

Then we change, and i start doubting everything again.


Going to school for one hour is no fun, freakin waste of my time. And i didn't get to see my favourite science people, but we had fun secretly stuffing swiss rolls that dear farah made. I really don't know what school would be without minah,aishah& farah and our dear MIA povan=)

Bounced to suntec for yoghurt and my my, PROMOTE FROLICK! haha their peach flavour is awesomezzzz. Sadly i think i shall forever get the same thing everytime i go there. Hopped to fareast for some err shopping if you call it that. Sorry i don't speak smallone language.(haha!) Then headed home to see ICG on tv. YEAHHHH, i wanna go for the bungee thingie toooo.

This whole weekend-whichincludesmondyandtuesdayaswell- is gonna be vunderful in all indian glory=) except that the dance is gonna be at the back of my mind the whole time but we'll see how that goes ehhh.

I'll never be able to tell you all the things i think about in my big head cos its never gonna do anyone any good, but if i'm only starting to realise all this and if its only affecting me after all these years, then damn i was blind. I suddenly but sadly don't see any point in all this. If only you could see what i was going through then you'd know but you're so caught up in godknowswhat to care about anything else.
and you know what, i'm not sorry this time.

ilovefridays.

Back to school=( and it doesn't feel different at all compared to last sem. The time spent in school will always be with the people i love, lectures are filled with the same old people(some which need to keep their eyes to themselves!) haha Itas will always have its charm and so will Sar=)

Understanding theatre is back to Sec2 drama, its exactly the same and thats before all the hoohaa happened and when i was free to screw up and explore my limits, which is one of the best things in the world. Haha kay now i shall go write my heart out on journal entries.

P.S. Stay away from scary skater matt dudes with tattoos and piercings! hahaa
and DRAINS too!

Timetable schwimemable.

My timetable sucks ballz=(

Freeze.

Class chalet was not what it was supposed to be but it was what i expected it to be.
HAHA! I hope everyone had fun despite the kinda-failure bbq and everyone resorting to tapauing food from the village. SORRY. But our charades were hilarious, and i got reminded not to drink once again. I realised i have the most awesomely awesome friends, and now i could never pay them back for what they did for me. All i can say is Thank you=) to specifically Castillo, Povan, Denesh, Arun, Raj, Kari, Sandy, Shahul, ABI, my fantastic siblings rakk and avin=), Mimi, shaun, rongjie, shijie, junyuan, denise, amanda & xinyi.
But all i can say is some people are zomg-funny when they're drunk and eating bread and drinking water & milk is not good when you're drunk. haha!

I love all of you guys=D


And congrats to TP ICG Dancers and CCP!

Now its back to school and the roller coaster ride of science. haha!
ABI DON'T GOOOOOO=(
cos i've been waiting all night for you to dance like me=)

I've turned punjabi.

F1 is over. And OH MY GOD. It was freaking awesome, besides seeing all the stars, tons of new friends and one-in-a-lifetime experiences and plus free booze, it could not get any better. Well except for the screw-ups, the pains, the disease, the coming back at 3-4am everyday and the fact that i won't see most of them again.

HAMI!!

i swear this reminds me of jurasic park where the trex is going run out and eat you any moment now.

Monday was a good catching up, just like the old days=) but i don't know if i can handle everything you tell me.

Tuesday was a blast. Zomg,our plan to cut our hair was so failure. Bi! you still don't need a haircut! I tired myself out by going to parkway and getting my dress and studs and i saw hottie hot senior from camp. HELLO.
BHANGRA NIGHT, the rain almost ruined it! i<3H-dhami=D
From the randomn guys to the awesome music to the weirdest dances you'll ever see, to the cutest dances you'll ever witness to the best indian mates a girl can have and finally to the charm of h-dhami.




Things are changing, i'm looking at life differently. Getting irritated at the things i'm not supposed to. I'm not sleeping enough and somehow i don't care.