our little awkwardnessings

Finally a real reason/ inspiration to blog. heh do check out the song. *looks above* WAIT PLAY IT NOW. While you read this. :) yeah SRY for the delay. I have been busy. or maybe not or maybe just pretending to be. Heh Big things. hmmm. tution and hindi school have been pretty much up and downs. With the plus point of the introduction of him walking me to the bus and actually waiting for me. It was really nice last week and we were talking and laughing and plus the 14 took a really long time to come. So yeah. But yesterday, it was kinda awkward, hmmm but he still did walk me even though he had ran his 2.4km with a timing of 10mins earlier that day. Fool. But then the 196 came pretty fast like in two mins or something. But still. :)
I love his smile.

School --> hmmm been shit funny and shit tiring and shit shitted. Yeah you get me. Been trying to really focus more and actually pushing myself to pay attention during physics but then i managed to stay awake but got distracted by drawing on my table. Heh. Oops. other wise it's preettay okay. hmmm could be better. Trying to cut down on carbs which is sorta working. I need to run dammit. Hmmm tell me what you think bout the song.

P.S. I highly recommend watching Dreamgirls. :)

muah.

Today was my little holiday from school, even though now i realise that chinese new year is coming, and that should be the holidays. hmmm.
Went for tution and really wasn't looking forward to it. But it turned out better than expected. We laughed alot, gossiping like girls bout the stupid hindi school girls, dang. You have no idea. He thought i was hiding something from him, but i don't really know, was i? Don't even remember. Whatever. Its somehow nicer like that. I met aditya batura, after say 3 over years, dang he changed. Yes you don't know who is. Well he was in my hindi school class back in primary school. So yeah. He changed and had lost all his chubbiness. Actually, kinda cute. But no. Last thing the idiot said to me, 'hey your earrings suck!' and aditya was like 'no, no they look fine.' which was after me swearing 'what the fuck' so yeah.

Today was made even better, met priety and my dad after tution, and i got my contacts so after CNY, or rather friday, you'll see the new me. Dang.
And also my dad's getting me a phone! FINALLY, i say. But still a phone. :D
off to study-like-a-shit-head, and get done the valentines gifts.

myfivethousandandcountingmoodswings

Watch this,


And then watch this,


I guess alot has happened and i basically didn't feel like blogging, yeah i didn't feel like it. hmmm. but valentine's is round the corner and i can't help but think of theidiotassholethatrefusestofreemymindandmeinpeace. Hmph. i don't know what's up with me lately. I'm just cranky. You should understand. Today's drama brought about dreading realisation. Realised that, my top candidate to take over presidency, didn't want the presidency and i can't just give it to her if she doesn't want it. And i remember fran telling us that it was such a hard decision to choose a president. i say what. i mean there were so many candidates. But no, it was so difficult, to choose between us. Well i have hardly anyone to choose from isn't that worse.

Plus the fact that nobody understands me.

I made a vow to buu today. And i will try to follow it.
I don't know what to give for valentine's day, but i will come up with something and that something what ever it is, it'll be good.

Tution's tomorrow and for once, i'm not looking forward to it.
Syf camp was confusing but at the same time good and preetty productive.
I hope i get my contacts tmr, *crosses fingers*

Desperado, why won't you come to your senses.

I promised so much to you today, and i don't know if i can keep it. but i will try, i will.
oh and i have to finish the syllabus by end april.
good luck to me.

mylifeisover.

i just died.
FUCK
i don't know what i was thinking, he's up on that cloud there and i roam the earth.
its over, all we'll ever be,
friends; that's what we'll ever be.

what a perfect way to finally get over him.
i guess this is when the whole world comes crashing down, smothering you.
and yet you don't die gasping for breath,
but of a broken heart.

BollyBolly

Meow. The weekend has passed and so has another week of school, and another day of hindi school and of course my party. :)
Where to start.
The party, that you weren't invited to, or wait, perhaps you were but there's a very small possibility. heh. It was Bollywood themed, yes abi, predictable. WELL. It was cool! We watched Bend it Like Beckham which is an all-timers favourite, i mean indian and soccer, an almost perfect combo. A lot of people didn't come, but with the people who did come, it was fun! Atleast towards the end! Rae my darling came decked in a full sari, that she had bought from Mustafa that morning, which she actually spent like 40 bucks on it! damn. That's to people who actually TRIED. It came down to spending quality time with the people you love, crapping and dancing, to weird bollybolly music which were actually english songs remixed to pure indian goodness.

I wasted my life away on Sunday, well, to an extent, when he refered to himself as hot, i exclaimed at the size of his ago, when i sorta refered to myself as cute, he agreed.

Monday aka today. Dang. what happened HMMMMM>
SyF camp is ruining my life.
i mean you don't know me if you don't know how much i would go through for drama BUT.
it's fucking pissing off.
besides that life is pretty swell.

oh happy birthdays to Keisha my darling junior, Kavina [buu's older sis] and err Christiano Ronaldo. :)

he might just like me,
i might just love him,
i don't understand life or love.
one day, i'll fly away.